35SCE, is a true hell hole.
The people without much education, without much future, is in my platoon.
I don't ever wanna mix with them. I've got to be myself.
Even though the camp's pretty near my house and her house, the first bookout was delayed by 3 damn hours.
Coming out feels almost like heaven, letting me be apart from them.
Sometimes I feel like fighting back...but everytime I do so, I'd think of my family, my university admission, my gal, and my future.
They have nothing to lose; I have everything to lose. So, if I ever get into deep shit, I'd still be the ultimate loser.
Maybe I was posted there for a reason; I have much to learn bout patience, control, and being thankful.
Booked out at 2, reached home at 3, and meet the baby at 7. Went to Fish and Co. at the Glass House, and it was so noisy that I couldn't have proper conversations with Her.
Well, the food was good, and the drink was good. Honey was smiling all night long.
Until I did something reckless and stupid. I hate to see Her cry. I hate to see Her sad. I hate it. It adds a tonne to my sunken heart.
I also just realised that my apologetic smses I sent Her last night didn't get through, so I'm gonna do a public apology on my blog.
I won't ever do it again, darling. I love You.I'm having a lil depression. My life seems like a damn bottleneck now, and it could only get worse.
Booking in tonight, and all I can do, is to see my national service as a dream, as you won't ever believe what exactly we go through.
Only mad dogs will bite mad dogs. Just remember that You have everything to lose while they don't.This is the ultimate mental and physical test of your life.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:32 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
So, I'm back from Thailand two days ago. It was fun, and bought hell loads of things.
Didn't manage to meet up with the rest, too much of a hassle and I don't feel like drinking or clubbing.
One of the days there, I wanted to find the Thai climbing place called Pro Climber, and I did find the address, but they moved out...and I spent around 12 SGD on the cab fare...roaming the rural areas for more than an hour.
So, I came back with a light and happy heart, only to find out that I've got into some deep shit.
Not a good vocation posting. Feels like I'm going to jail.
If it's not my choice, then I choose to believe that it's by purpose.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
9:08 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
24 km route march and POP on Wednesday. Left Zulu Coy and Rocky Hills in one piece.
Went out with the Silly Gal on Thursday, and on Friday, played soccer with the platoon at The Cage, went to play Lan and met up with Joseph to climb afterwards.
I'm much faster when I'm climbing now.
Read bout the Standby-Organs case that happened in Tekong, and it has inevitably sent chills down my spine.
Flight tomorrow to Thailand, and it's been so long since I've been there.
So what's next?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:43 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
I'm back from the 7 days of confinement.
A long weekend was burned entirely last week; but I wasn't. I miss my gal the most.
Got into NTU's sociology course, and I'd be looking forward to the new arts facilities.
Caught Terminator Salvation with the babe yesterday at Filmgarde Kallang. It was a good show, although I expected better.
So, somehow it managed to reinforce my stand that regimentation are making us all machines. Like how men would uphold someone else's values above their own, following orders strictly, thinking that it is the right thing to do.
Well, I see such people no different from machines. Is the difference the ability to resist?
No. The difference between man and machine is the ability to feel obliged and to disobey.
Discipline is one thing, feeling obliged is another. Conforming is also another.
Passing Out Parade (POP) on Wednesday; that means evacuation out of HH.
You either break the system with your mind, or the system breaks you in yours.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
11:29 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
