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Friday, June 29, 2007


Common test week is over.

At least the pressure within is not conspicuous now.

But that doesn't mean I stop.

Here's the quote of the day: "You cannot plough a field by turning it over in your mind."

"The best way out is always Through."



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

8:35 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Thursday, June 21, 2007


I can't forgive myself for forgetting when Her birthday is.

She can't forgive me either.

It is my fault entirely.My tentative punishment?Not being able to talk to Her as She doesn't wanna pick up my calls.

I don't know how to coax Her back, and I know how She feels inside.

I know.I know.I know.

The feeling of being utterly upset;and I'm the cause of it.

Now She's gonna have an impression that I'm not serious bout Her.

That's the last impression of me that I want Her to have.



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

8:13 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Monday, June 18, 2007


One week before Common Test.

Sure feels like the O level's again.Well,the big A level's is in less then 2 years' time.

I've gotta strive and struggle hard.

Now the voice inside my head is asking me(I name it 'Joker'): Now,so many people is working so damn hard for this, so are you...but what makes you different from them?

A slight difference in the quality of your knowledge or even a slight deviation of the amount of time is significant would make you lose out.

It comes to a point now that everything matters virtually.We have long surpassed the period when we could still afford to be ignorant.I reiterate myself again: Everything Matters.

Relationships,friendships,financial ability,life skills,academic grades,physical strength and build,looks and even psychological well-being matters.

It's how you prioritise these attributes that make you successful;not so much on whether you possess it.Possession is a simple task;but it's the difficulty of maintaining it that you should worry about.

Don't call me paranoid; I just wanted to get my thoughts straight.Sometimes,being paranoid gives you the upper-hand.You could call yourself much of a dreamer and someone who takes things easy as they come,but I'd rather be labelled as someone who takes things hard and get the upper-hand by fucking reality before it fucks you back even harder.

Lastly,I'd like to say that people could always treat you with nice gestures but their agendas are much hidden.Trust someone at you own risk.

Cause' no one else would wanna be responsible for your demise.



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

6:53 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Sunday, June 10, 2007


Gosh.My dearest got me the Andy Hunter cd that I've always wanted by surprise!

Man,albeit the album only having 6 songs,but all the songs are good.The album is definitely worth it.

I'm beginning to like ambient-electronica.Never fails to get me to feel euphoric.It sorta radiates "love" and in just a couple of minutes,you'd be feeling spellbound.

Thanks for the cd baby.

How could I not be grateful?



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

7:40 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Friday, June 08, 2007


Captions:My bed.

Captions:My room.


SMUN wasn't as fun as I thought it'd be,but it wasn't as bad either.I went to report at NUS LT8 on tuesday morning,and our SRJC teacher in-charge was later himself while he ordered us to wait at Clementi MRT station.

My dad woke me up at the wrong time,I had initially set my alarm to 5.30am,but my dad called me up at 6.30 and the time for meeting was at 7.20.My dad thought he was sending me to school.

What a serious communication problem between father and son.

Anyway,I went there with a white short sleeved shirt wearing the SR blazer.I was looking and feeling bloody inferior.All the other schools wore nice blazers that bore the various famous JC's crest.I packed everything needed into a big luggage bag with no wheels.Cool eh?Then I had to carry it around like it's cool.

Ok,I represented Romania.In the Historical General Assembly.It was the biggest committee in SMUN.At the Eusoff Hall,we checked in and I've got the 4th floor which is the highest.Room number: B411.The thing good bout it is that it was located near the washroom.I could basically run from my room to the washroom without any clothes on and not be seen by the gals.

Basically,what we do at SMUN is a formal gathering at some hostel residence's function room called Prince George's Park and hold our commitee sessions,a.k.a debates.It's very far away from our dorms.A bus trip would be needed to travel to the destination.The only good thing is,Subway and Cheers is located at the midpoint of the distance.

Everything bout the commitee sessions is formal,and the other delegates from all the other better JCs look so intimidating,I'm so sorry to say.But there were some nice guys from RJC,who approached and talked to me.

The various JCs that participated: NJC,HCI,RJC,TJC,NYJC,CJC,TPJC and SRJC.Isn't it embarrasing?I wasn't even prepared at all.I've seen them all doing their pre-working papers and I didn't even prepare or read up any shit.But luckily,the opening speech was done last minute,and my partner did the talking.
On the whole,we didn't contribute much to the debates,we were being very very passive.I just sat there and watched the others flaunt their debating skills.

Luckily,there were also other countries from good JCs like TJ and NJ that were as passive as us.Well,being passive doesn't necessarily mean anythin bad,at least I got to observe how the others carry themselves out so well.I began to recognize the trend that the various JCs had.I also noticed that they were all so stern serious and hardworking.In fact,I've never ever seen such capable,efficient and tough people like them before.Although they might be muggers,but it'd definitely get them a guaranteed place in any university.

That's exactly what I need to learn from them.Self control and discipline.The thing is that their english,their total understanding of the whole UN thing and the way they express themselves amazed me tremendously.

These are the people I should learn from.

The 1st night was orientation night,I didn't even turn up.Instead,my J2 friend and I took a free shuttle bus to Subway but ended up eating Lay's instead.Wasted trip.

The 2nd night was social night,and I wore this fitting purple polo-tee with jeans and I thought I wasn't lookin so good.The music was playin loud when we entered the hall to our designated seats.We were assigned to be seated next to someone of the opposite sex and guess what?I was the only lucky one that didn't have a gal.

Then this nice HCI guy invited me over to his table where they're plenty of gals,both good and bad lookin ones,and luckily I had someone that was pretty good looking.We began to eat and talk.Guess what happened next?

I saw Jasmine Tye from Singapore Idol 2 sittin at the opposite table.Full of guts,I shouted out to her across the table,asking her "Do You remember Me?".She smiled and me and said no.I told her to keep thinkin bout it.She did as she was told and throughout dinner I could see her looking puzzled constantly trying to 'recall' who I was.You should've seen the look on her face man,damn funny.

Another lucky thing happened:the gal that I was sitting next to got chosen to be one of the SMUN couples on stage.How lucky.Then there were 3 gals from the press corp from VJC wanting to take my picture,sayin that I look good and that they wanted to post my picture online for the SMUN website.I denied and just walked away.

The dance floor followed after dinner...the lights were off and loud dancin music blasting through the hall.At 1st everyone was too shy to dance,but when one guy started breakdancin,everyone got hyper.Too bad that I didn't know how to dance at all.I just stood there and looked.There were gals who were dancing their asses off to the music and totally immersed in sexual dancin.

Yikes.

After dinner,I saw Jasmine walking to the bus stop and I went to tell her that it was a prank,but she kept saying that I was familiar and that I was alleged to be a friend of her friend.Weird.It was supposed to be a prank.But nevermind,straight after that she told me that I'm a cute guy and told me not to go out of the NUS compound.The bus came and she smiled sweetly and said: "Bye cute guy-"

It's not too bad being complimented by someone famous eh?

I went back to my room and blasted music all the way with my phone and just cast myself away from the world except for one lovely person.Even though I was already on my bed,I still wanted to talk to her cause I missed her so.

Really do miss her.

The room was really hot,and I woke up several times in the night in sweat.I just can't take the heat.Another issue: the room is full of weird bugs like bloody beetles,but strangely enough,no lizards.Which is good.

Today,the committee session got worst and more boring than before.Was boldly smsing during the sessions.During lunch on the second day,my shoe got caught in the fast slamming door of the nearby foodcourt and the sole came out.Really grateful for Georgia's Mart nearby for selling some super glue which is of great help.

Yesterday's committee interaction time I turned up but got turned off when I saw the people there.So I wandered off alone to the Subway faraway to get some macadamia cookies.I went there,sweating like hell from all the walking,and I ordered 2 cookies.Then the lady asked me whether I was a student at NUS and I didn't even think twice bout saying no.She charged me $1.50 for 2 cookies initially because of the discount and then gave me another one sayin that it was not perfect.How cool is that?That's 3 cookies for $1.50 man!

Today during breakfast,there was this NJC gal askin me boldly to let her take a photo of me as she said she liked the way I looked.I declined discreetly.I'm really not such a kinda of guy.I don't like taking photos of myself.

For the past few days,I've been dressing up in my best,and the most regretful thing is,my baby ain't there to see it.

Oh well,now that I'm back,I've loads of work to complete and lots to do.Everything is back to normal,I hope.

So tell me there isn't anything that I've missed?



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

7:23 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Monday, June 04, 2007


I almost forgot that I had a blog.Been really busy with work and stuff these days.

The Chalet last week was awesome;Pirates of the Caribbean 3 wasn't nice.Morever,we watched it at midnight and it was a bloody long show.But I'm not complaining bout the atmosphere inside the cinema.It was really great.

Been really tired recently,I think it's due to the weather.It's fucking hot.I seem to have a bad pimple outbreak cause of the burning weather.

CS with my classmates certainly beat those games I waste away online with those random China pros.I own most of the maps.Gosh,it's hell loads of bloody fun.

Tomorrow's SMUN.Only today then I realised that an opening speech is mandatory.The worst thing is that I haven't been doing any shit research on the issue yet.I sure hope I won't make a fool outta myself for the next 4 days.

The social-night's theme: Purple Rain.Could You believe it?It's bloody gay.The only thing I have that is purple is a polo-tee.Mediocre.

What I need now is something that can fuel and inject me with some adrenaline to generate me an armor of confidence.



He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

5:24 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-