Friday, November 30, 2007
Reported to the Hotel at 5 pm. Took them so damn long to get me my pass.
The cafeteria was bloody crowded.
The mission: American Express Dinner and Dance.
They actually paired me up with a 2nd timer.He was just as muddled-headed as I was.
The Kitchen was crowded,stuffy and oily.Looks like a hotel isn't so clean after all.We even had to clean the cleaned plates,could you believe that?
Those dishes were bloody heavy.During some courses I had to take up my partner's share.We were designated to 2 tables.
I was so damn lucky.Damn damn lucky.My table was supposed to have around 10 people,in the end only 7 turned up.
At first I didn't know how to portion the food,but in the end the guests all tried to help me especially a guy who even offered to help me hold the fish plate while I portioned the damn pompret.
My damn partner told me to use bowls for the noodles.In the end,the it was actually for the dessert.Well,the guests didn't even mind actually...they told me that noodles should be served in bowls hahaz.Well,I just smiled discreetly back at those nice people.
A waiter's job isn't any easy work.In fact,you actually start serving from 8 to 11.But these 3 hours consists of running,panicking and hell lots of serving.
Oh well, now I know that money is fucking hard to earn.I just hope that she returns safely tomorrow night...while I'd be down there working my ass off.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:55 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, November 29, 2007
It's been 4 days since She's gone.
Look on the bright side, She's gonna be back in 2 more days.
Now I can't wait.
Today will be my first day working.I'd never worked before.Especially in the night.
Maclaurin's tutorial is pretty easy but tedious.Bloody tedious.I still have physics to revise.
Oh this whole week's gonna be so damn busy.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
5:49 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
It's day 2 since She's gone off.
I'm honestly miss her hell lots.Now I'm deciding whether to go to China during the last week of December.
I'm currently low on music.
Today my post consists of just mere rants.
There's nothing much going on nowadays.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
12:25 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
She flew off to Sarawak for CIP this morning.
It's gonna be for a week.
Not good.
I like her place, which is small and cosy.
I'm currently addicted to CS: Source. Much better graphics, much better blood and maps.
Hopefully I can start work this week and get her something special when she returns.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
12:52 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, November 23, 2007
I found two small little books on my table this morning: there were actually part of the series "The Gems of Success" specially catered to a primary school kid.
I don't know how it got on to my table; I'd just taken up for a browse.
To my amazement, it seems like an encyclopedia hidden in a thin, colourful and vivid little magazine book. From issues regarding halitosis to mountainclimbing; from ferrets to literature references; from chemistry techniques to the KMT issue in Taiwan, really made me thought of what the society has become of today.
This year's top PSLE student score: 294.
Amazing.
Children nowadays are no longer the same. We used study within our textbooks, now they study practically everything. Those books on my table brings back a strong feeling of nostalgia.
Sometimes, all the things happening around you can make you feel like a nobody.
We strive hard to get to the top, in the end many of us lose our determination when someone else takes the position. Well, some would play it hard too; they compete.
This is what, in my opinion, makes this world go round. Competition; where we strive to be the best.
Imagine that this world didn't have any competition; there'd be no war nor famine; no hate nor jealous. Well, we can't complain, cause we were all born different, all were born with different abilities.
It is our thoughts; our perception of what is the best, that actually blinds us from making life worth living.
NSSCC speed climbing competition tomorrow at Suntec. One shot is all that I've got.
I'm trying to get myself some adrenaline rush.
I guess I'm getting old.
I don't know whether if I'm still that speedy adrenaline junkie monkey.
Come on' , gimme something to invigorate me.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
4:10 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Saturday, November 17, 2007
A Romantic Escapade.
I've always wanted one and yes, yesterday was one good one.
Now I've just shown you that a romantic date doesn't necessarily cost much.
Nothing beats having a loved one in your arms in a cooling, yet quiet night.
You sure do flatter me sometimes.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
8:58 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Yesterday was the great day.
Yes, The Great Day.
Current playlist: All of Skillet's songs.I'm feeling great for the first time in so so so many months.
A man does have his pride. But if there's someone out there that can actually make him give it up, then She actually means alot to him.
You don't have to hide those feelings any longer...it is not wrong to show them.
Forget the pride, as it is nothing without respect.Do not be afraid, as love is not ours to keep but ours to give away.Deep down in that cold, callous heart...I realised that there is still some good, just exactly how She believed in me...and perhaps some hope left for me and for us.
There's something deep inside, that actually keeps Our Love alive.It has never been dead, I was just trying to escape from it all along. Tried to use hate to get my out. Hatred and angst is useful to me in some ways, but it can't possibly solve all my problems. Especially not problems that put my heart on the line.
Right now, I'm just very glad that I could come to my senses and be able to love, once again.It's almost like a rebirth.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
4:59 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Monday, November 12, 2007
What my coach said a few weeks ago just happened to cross my mind: We all need to be aroused to perform optimally.
Be Aroused.Can You believe it?
It is necessary to feel powerful, and sometimes...to the extent of being antagonistic.
We can either approach a problem with extreme calmness, or we can approach it with extreme aggression....well I prefer the latter conspicuously.
With arousal, comes adrenaline.
Oh just where the fuck has all my adrenaline gone to?
Ever since I came into the second intake, I realised that I've lost much of my adrenaline.
Well, know what's the only thing constant in this world?
Change. I know it's ironic, but yes it is.
I miss those secondary school crazy days when we all did crazy stuff.
I had lots of balls then...what actually happened to em' now?
Yes, studies do have something to do with it, well I guess it's influence. Even though I may seem strong on the outside, I could be dealing with some shit on the inside.
People do have the power to influence each other subconsciously.
No matter how strong your mentality is. It's just a matter of the degree of the effect.
Well, it's also because I've grown older and perhaps more mature even though I do stupid things at times.
But I do like my balls and adrenaline.
Now the only thing that rings in my head: What is a man, without pride?Don't ever forget that Intrinsic Trait, Joker.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
6:10 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, November 09, 2007
My left arm's injured. It was first the forearm but today it came to my bicep.
I can't climb a shit.
The school is beginning to feel like a damn prison.I have to go back to school practically everyday?
It feels like fucking probation.
I feel the fire burning deep inside again.We all care so much to follow the rules, but the more serious we are, the harder the rules'll become.
I don't like to take the beating of the rod.
I'd like to be the one holding the rod.
Current Playlist: Beatcrusher-Dope Stars Inc.Try getting close to death without real pain.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
4:13 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Monday, November 05, 2007
Today's Oral Presentation was uncertain. After 6 months of taking Project Work, it finally ends here.
Well, I don't regret being in my PW group.
Sure hope it was fun for you guys.
I did my presentation at the optimal, but I forgot one fucking thing: I actually forgot about the printed slides and my friend's printed slides which I was supposed to click for him.
Damn, I left it in the bag.
I clicked the slides discreetly and secretly but still the assessors saw me. Double damn. I'd be penalised for no group coherence.
Oh, to add on, I actually said a profanity(you know which) behind the assessors while we took our bags and were able bout to leave.
Triple Damn.It is so bloody uncertain.
A classmate's birthday today, and he actually had a real frog for a present. He realised that frog and it jumped straight into a 3m deep empty canal, HEAD-first.
Well I thought it would have gone 'splat' and died but it bounced back up and stood there dumbly.
Simply Amazing.
I'm having some mixed feelings here and there.
Sweet.Sour.Bitter.Spicy.These 'flavours' just add colours to our lives don't they?
You have the ingredients, but ultimately, the power to choose which flavours to add in your life still depends on You.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
3:52 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, November 01, 2007
One bloody flaw I have: Impatience and Impulsiveness.
Yes, my tendency to get agitated is so much higher than average, and most of the times I do not even think about my reactions.
My reflection: if I don't even stop for a split second and follow my instantaneous anger blindly, it'll most probably get me no where.
My solution: Stop and think twice.
Stop and think twice before doing anything: regulate your own impulsiveness.
People always advise on thinking twice while doing something.We often perceive thinking twice as a change in our stand, hence, it is often that we are compelled not to think twice as we are reluctant to change our stand.
It is often that we act impulsively.
I would like to stress on this: thinking twice bout doing something does not necessarily make you change your stand, provided that it is firm. In-depth thinking, even for that split second, could determine your life.
The bottomline: When someone agitates psychologically you, always maintain your composure. I know you have the power to fight back, how does it benefit you in the long run? What we want here are the permanent interests, not the temporary ones. Temporarily, you want to see that person you hate fall under your feet, bleeding like a fuck, not giving a bloody damn about others' perception of you or the consequences. Chances are, if you do it impulsively, you've got everything to lose and you end up no different from that bleeding fuck; you're fucked too.
Why not stop and think of an ultimate plan to get them? Yes, we do want them dead, but with your plan, the way they're gonna die depends entirely on You, and you get away...scot-free.
Wonderful, isn't it?
Maintain your composure, have a plan, be professional. Seek pleasure from whatever you're gonna do...and as far as I'm concerned, your enemies are still...flesh.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
3:22 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
