Monday, February 26, 2007
I had P.E today,soccer as usual with the other group.My group had been trashed by the opponent team since the last couple of weeks.Well,this was all to be changed today.
I brought my 'golden' boots to school and I played the right wing.Man,it was one hell of a match and I scored a fine goal.After the Final whistle:we won 4-1.Gosh,at least there's improvement in our team.Well,I'd like to say it was all in my 'golden' boots.Hahaz.
I've just practised a couple of basic rolling on the floor and I did them fine,the only thing is that I get bloody dizzy after a roll.And my left back hurts.My left knee kinda hurts too,there's this strange 'pop' or 'crack' sound whenever I bend it,I sure do hope there's no internal injury such a fracture there.
Oh,by the way,
Hannibal Rising has a very ingenious storyline
.I can really relate to how Hannibal Lecter feels.No,I
really can.Ah,I noticed that I was like the only one in the cinema with popcorn,I was gorgin myself away during the sadistic scenes.Yummy.
I get so hungry nowadays;I could eat a horse.Or Someone.There's a new nickname for me again:my form teacher calls me the hyper-active Spiderman.Well,I don't particularly adore spiderman,but it seems more appropriate than a monkey.
I'm super dizzy now,I had a tiring day and I'm exhausted.
Goodbye People.Be good-
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
3:17 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, February 23, 2007
I jumped down off the second floor parapet again.This time I didn't hesitate at all.It was done with speed.
I did it as I felt so lethargic during the previous period of physics.Oh,I had a bad adrenaline lag and I couldn't stop stretching myself.So I had to do something to satisfy my adrenaline glands.I needed to feel alive again.I needed
parkour.
They all called me crazy and one of the caucasian teacher managed to catch me.He was furious and led me to the general office to get caning(supposedly).But too bad for him,the discipline teacher wasn't around,and the teachers walkin past me asked me what was I in for.Hahaz,all the anonymous teachers seem to know my name.Well my form tutor told me that I'm already infamous in school.Well I told her that it has been a fact since primary school.
When I told the teachers I jumped off the ledge at the second floor,they thought I was kidding.No,seriously,they thought I was.I told them I was just doing the French lucid sport
Parkour.
It's a sport,damn it!That caucasian teacher then left my case to the HOD of the Physics department.Gosh I thought I was done for.
He asked me for the place where I attempted the 'stunt'.When we were there,he seemed very surprised.He said the ledge was quite high.He questioned bout how I landed,I told him I didn't do the roll as I was carrying my bag and I landed with my hands on the ground.He asked me why it was necessary to roll while landing;I told him it was to shift and divert the momentum of the fall,so as not to put all the pressure on the knees.
Here's the funny part:He told me since I was so interested,let's sit down and discuss bout it.I thought he was kidding but he began telling me the theory of physics behind parkour.He told me the exact reason why rolling is necessary while landing;it was to prolong the time to stop the inertia of my whole body mass while it fell towards the ground;all this is based on a few physics formulas on Force.New formulas not taught yet.
Wow man,I was so intrigued by what he told me,I'm ever so determined to apply the physics theory in parkour.He didn't even scold me while explaining to me physics.It was just a pure blessing in disguise.I was never so happy that I jumped from the ledge.
Finally after explaining the formulas written on paper,I asked him:"Sir,would this all be taught in H1 physics?" He told me yes.Man,I love physics even more now.
This would definitely fuel my passion for the very extreme beautiful lucid sport called Parkour,which is strictly only for Adrenaline Junkies.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
2:15 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
There's a new nickname for me in school.All because of a GP lecture on beautiful people.The lecturer asked all the alleged 'beautiful' people present to stand in one row in front of the lecture theatre.
I got picked out by all my friends.Both the guys and gals.Oh my.It sure was embarrasing.Then the teacher asked us one by one what we thought was beautiful bout our own faces.When my turn came,I said it was up to the others to judge me.Then the teacher said something stunning that left me in a state of perpetual shock:the gals were all initially yellin 'sexy eyes' when it came to my turn then she said,'don't you think his lips are sexy?' This is so absurd.
Oh my.Now some of the gals are callin me 'sexy eyes and lips'.I don't know if they meant it or they were just teasing me.Oh well.
I didn't get no reply from her in school today...she was her usual self.But she didn't seem to shun me or anything...just being her total usual self.Well I guess this is the way to be,to avoid the situation from turning too awkward.
I didn't question her also,I would like her to have her own privacy and space;I do not wish to have any pressure on her at all.
Current Playlist:Combichrist-Kiss the BladeI feel so tired nowadays.I feel the nausea due to adrenaline lag.I couldn't even play soccer on form.I feel that I'm changing back into my old self.This change is drastic.I'm feeling more nowadays.
What's got into me?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
12:36 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, February 15, 2007
I managed to finish the present for Her just in time.Man,it was really tough getting everything into place.I had to travel all the way back to town to get it wrapped up nicely.Everything was in place.
I even met one of my good female friend to go all the way to Parkway to get a stalk of rose.A pink one.Which looked really nice,with the wrapping.
All these went pretty well,I had a high sense of hope.Apart of all this,I had to find a way to pass it to Her.In school.When She's alone,or at least where it is the least crowded.
I found the chance,of course,with the help of my buddies...got the other gals distracted away and time for me to step into the picture.I approached her,and I just handed her the gifts with the rose,told Her straight in the face Happy Valentine's Day and that She'd definitely understand when She sees the present.
She looked at me and said that I was sweet.Mutual Blushing occured.I hope my sincerity can move her at the very least...
Hmm,guess what the problem is now?She stuffed the present in her bag along with the rose,and managed to tear the wrapper.Oh man,but I told her,she said that it was ok,and that the wrapper was nice.Of course man,I spent alot on the wrapper itself.
She's leaving for Korea for a Holiday till Tuesday.I'm going to miss Her badly,I tell you.Gosh will She even remember what I've done for Her after she comes back?
I've got to stop ponderin about it,as I've already done my part,I'm just waiting for the results.Ok I shall be very patient.Hope Joker doesn't show.I wouldn't want him to,as I like being in love again.
We had a cool class lunch together at Dhoby.Without Her,sadly.But well,I still have my friends.My gal buddies are so encouraging?Gosh I've gotta thank them loads!I love them all.I'd be there for them whenever they ever need me.
Something really funny happened at Long John's where we were havin lunch.This crazy old worker came up to my friend John and wiped his hands clean with a dirty cloth.How funny is that?John was considered lucky that he didn't get killed.
Oh my,and there's this fat indian gal in my class who's really annoying and everyone dislikes her.The weird thing is that she got roses,even though they were fake.I couldn't stop wonderin who gave them to her,cause we all agreed to leave her out.
I recieved quite alot of gifts from my female friends all over,which is super sweet.I haven't spent such a lasting and nice valentine's day ever before.All the past Valentines I was often depressed.This time,I actually feel happy and even a sense of Hope?
My buddies and I got every gal in our class something,and it was so sweet just to have someone to care to even swap gifts with You?I love the stuff my female friends bake,there're always so good,except the yogurt cheese cookie.Hahaz.
Well,I hope She enjoys herself on her holiday.I'd leave the rest to fate. But don't worry,even if the outcome turns out to be really bad,I'm sure Joker will be here to save me.I will die standing if I have to.Trust me on this.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
4:19 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Another day to Valentine's day.This time,I'm prepared.I've done something I'd never ever done to a gal before.Somethin which I reckon is very special,but it'd be up to her to justify it.
I hope my efforts won't be in vain,guts and heart is all I have to offer.
I don't have much time to rant on bloggin,perhaps in my next post.
See ya guys,
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
3:50 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, February 09, 2007
I've got 15 points for my O level results.Oh but I don't feel a thing,cause I already predicted I'd be getting at least 15.
Oh fuck,my Biology had a C5 which is shit.I had expected to get at least a B3 though.Oh my friends have all done so well,congratulations to all of them.
I will try to appeal to get in SAJC,with a barrier of 2 points.I do hope they accept me.My friends and even my principal said that I had a high chance of getting in there as an Arts student,as I have an A1 for English and an A2 for Combined Humanities.
Well,both my maths is still the same.Both B3s which I also had expected.
Oh well.I guess I'm just average.I didn't work hard enough.Just didn't do hard enough.
But I'm not letting this bring me down,I'm gonna take all these in and become better.Joker would compell me to do so.
Now the only quote that rings in my head is:
What doesn't kill You,only makes You stronger.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
1:42 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, February 08, 2007
My heart and mindset keeps shapeshifting.Joker's not particularly happy.
This is Hard.Oh by the way,the results of the O level's will be released tomorrow.I'd be lookin forward for a reunion with the old school mates and a soccer match perhaps?
Just like old times.Oh by the way,the new Jukebox is up!Try all the songs inside there,some are even downloadable.Comments are welcomed,always.
I got to go now,there's just so much to do,so little time.
Be good-
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
6:39 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
One of my friends just withdrew from school.The guy who wasted one year in the JC as he was a retainee.The sad thing is,he didn't even tell us on that day itself?Only online he finally spoke the truth.
Oh my,there's another gal in my class who's withdrawing on friday.The day that the O level's results are official.Oh darn.
There lots of people in my CG who already withdrew.How many more to go man?
Well,they say
all good things must come to an end,that's in order for better things to come.Oh well.
Hope all those who withdrew would still keep in touch with me,and take care always.Even though the memories are short,they will still be vividly etched in my mind for ages.Good memories are always worth treasuring.Oh by the way,Valentine's Day is exactly in one week's time.I don't think I'd have a date.
Which is Damn.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
1:47 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Saturday, February 03, 2007
According to UNICEF,
30,000 children
die each day due to
poverty. And they "die quietly in some of the poorest villages on earth, far removed from the scrutiny and the conscience of the world. Being meek and weak in life makes these dying multitudes even more invisible in death." That is about
210,000 children each week, or just under 11 million children under five years of age, each year.
I'm very angered at such a statistic.I've been listening to hell lots of songs from the activist band
System of a Down,and their meaningful songs have sparked off my attention.I've realised that I've been too ignorant.
Far too ignorant.What I've been indulging in,the whole day,just sittin there and dreaming bout my friends,bout the gal I like,bout where to go later and so on.Little did I know these are trivial matters that happen everyday.Yet often we dream and ponder so much on such insignificant matters.Just spare yourself a minute to think bout this:What actually revolves in your mind most of the time?Do you think it is worth your time to actually think bout it?What is revolving in your parent's minds?What do they argue for?Well,my parents argue bout trivial matters like ironing clothes to strikin lottery.
Such matters are extremely insignificant.Yet people argue bout them.Why?Because they are ignorant bout their surroundings.They depend so much on other people to shape their world;the government.They themselves do nothing to change anything.Yet when the government has done its job,they make stupid and selfish rants obnoxiously.
Now I really hate people who actually have the power,the ability to do something to change the world and the capacity to at least store something useful to the world in their brains,yet all they do is care bout themselves.
Fuck people like them.They always wanna play but they're so afraid to lose.Here's another statistic:"A few hundred millionaires now own as much wealth as the world's poorest 2.5 billion people"
Doesn't this anger you too?Whenever I read bout such alarming statistics,I feel like a person who doesn't deserve to live at all as I'm always only caring bout myself.I admit I'm a very self-centered person.But now I'm willing to change this fact.I am not afraid of your opinions nor comments,I would rather spend the time to reflect on my actions and be a better person.I would rather think more and feel less,as what I feel is honestly unimportant to the world;what I do is significant.
Ok,you might argue that it is because of what you feel that leads to your action.It is only true to a certain extent.But the question now is,do you let your feelings affect you actions,or do you at the very least try to change this 'norm'?
Even if everyone is doing it,it doesn't mean that it is right.Vice versa.We all take things as they come.Never questioning bout the reason why they were created in the first place.We all let others' opinions affect us;we take things for granted.We all take those news on television to be true;never ever to question bout propaganda.Even for religions,we never ever dare to question our own beliefs.We all want to believe that our beliefs are true,by doing this,we are instead doing ourselves harm.We are takin our minds,which keeps the human species at the top of the food chain for granted.
Rich people are ignorant.Ok this might be a stereotype I know,but so far,nothing that the rich are doin are making me stereotype the other way.I just hate it when those people think money is everything.They think they own everything,and money can settle everything.Most of the time,they think only of getting even more money,while being apathetic to those who are less fortunate than them.
Seein such 'atrocity',it drives me even more to work harder and be better than them in every aspect.Once my grandfather told me,it doesn't matter whether you are rich or poor,the capacity for knowledge is the same for everyone.It is important that you always learn on your own,never be afraid of trying and failin and never be afraid of what others might say.Just stay focused on your goal and you'd be one step nearer.
This is only part of Reality.Wake up from your dreams.Your life depends solely on you only;no one else can be held responsible.If you have something that you like,go for it.Push yourself to the limits to get it.No matter what your background is,it doesn't matter at all as opportunities in life are equal to everyone.
One last thing I would like to add:Never ever think that You're good enough with anything,cause You're not.Never ever stop learning.You may be at the top now,but You still gotta learn how to keep it.
Mark my words.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
8:28 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, February 02, 2007
I'm so tired today.I didn't even wanna go for my CCA.My arms are still aching.
There's a cross-country tomorrow.On a Saturday.Could you believe?Now my friends are making fun of me singing songs,sayin my actions are very funny.
Oh hehehe.Yeah right.Today I tried to delete some of the videos they took on the phone.3 guys chased after me.And one of my friends fell down endin up with a wound on his arm.
Sorry,I didn't mean it Brother.Now I'm just hoping Joker kills the EMO me.A.S.A.P.I need to get stronger.There's just so many obstacles in life that are awaiting me.I need some guidance from Him.
People have been asking me if I worry for my results.Joker tells them not at all.He tells me that the obstacles I'm facing now are nothing compared to those faced in the future.Not even my O level results matter.He got rid of the anxiety that I would have;just like anyone else would have.
The fact is I don't feel nervous or anxious at all.
Like Bruce Lee said,"Your greatest enemy is Yourself."Now I finally understand this statement.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
2:01 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
