Saturday, December 30, 2006
Today is New Year's Eve,the moment we've all been waiting for.A total new 365 days ahead of us.Depends entriely on how you actually use them.
No plans today though.I'm having the strong urge to create another blogskin again.I found loads of nice pictures that are of different themes which could all suit my type of industrial songs.All of them are so nice,till I don't know which to choose.
By the way,I realised that my song can't work in this blog(it hangs halfway while loading)and I've taken note of that.Well,I'm not sure what the problems are cause the procedures to addin the song in the HTML of this skin seems correct.I'm working on it,please bear with me...cause I'm really busy lately creating more blogskins.Oh,I almost forgot to add,that one of my classmate Antonius is leaving S'pore today.I reckon he's not coming back...well I'm so sorry that I couldn't see him off,well I'd always have you guys;the whole of my secondary 3-4 class in my heart.This I dare promise you guys-Take care Antonius-Just wanna take this opportunity to wish everyone a Happy New Year and may all your wishes come through.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
9:43 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, December 29, 2006
I found the girl/lady in the picture so beautiful,and partly because she's sticking out her tongue to lick the white rose,and I've got a serious tongue fetish.It just really turns me on?In the middle of the picture there was the words 'sweet darkness'.I said to myself,''whoa,this is a good picture,cause a really good picture doesn't lack feminism!''
I just feel that there's a certain degree/magnitude of darkness inside each and everyone of us,well it only depends on whether we show it or not...But one thing is for sure:I find this sort of darkness very alluring,very mysterious and very beautiful?
I hope you guys share the similar taste as me and find this blogskin pleasant too.Oh by the way,my blog song's by Neon Synthesis titled Stolen by the Wind.It was the only thing that sparked my inspiration to create this skin.They're a cool underground industrial/coldwave band and I find this song so mellow...yet so soothing?I also hope that you guys find this blogskin layout more pleasant than my previous ones,cause I learnt quite alot bout HTML while creating it.Well,at least the words are more readable and the blogskin seems to be more professional.
Hahaz.But unfortunately,the Jukebox isn't up yet,and I have yet to upload new songs into it,so I guess you guys just have to wait till I upload more cool songs.Well,it's just a few more days to a New Year and I ask myself again:What's my new year resolutions gonna be?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
6:59 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Another year's gonna pass by again.Gosh I can't wait to go to JC next year.I can't wait for Hell to break loose there man.
Gosh,am I lucky not to have my ex-girlfriends to wishing me Merry Christmas.This should be the way,I don't have nothing to do with them anymore,and vice versa for them.Don't ever come back into my life,our lives won't ever cross again.They tie me down so badly in the past,if they came back,they're just gonna affect my future,so just stay faraway from me.
Nowadays,everyone seems to be improving in pool.Ironically,they also don't have much time to spare cause everyone seems to be working.I regret not workin,I'm short of cash now as I splurged all my remaining cash shopping.
I reckon next year in JC,it's hard to get a girlfriend without any assets.Perhaps I'd take up part time jobs next year to support myself better.
I feel like changin my blogskin theme again.I have lots of people complainin that my blog isn't really visible...gosh I couldn't agree less.
Shall be working on a new blogskin that will keep persistent but encouraging guys like you who always invade my blog satisfied hahaz-
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
12:26 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Saturday, December 23, 2006
The appeal to SAJC didn't work.But my other friends got in.By CCA I reckon.Damn.I was such a potato couch then.Should've got my butt to work or something.
Well,nevermind bout that now,I'd be joing them after the first 3 months with my O level's results.I will.In the meantime,school's gonna start soon.Well,I should be glad that I'm even going to a JC.Well,I guess there're definitely people out there that feel the same way I do,and in the situation I'm in.
What we could all do is just try to stay happy,and not let any failures affect any of us.Not even the criticism.Not even that,and I almost forgot to add;Hope.It's what keep our Faith strong.No,I'm not talking bout false hope though,well let's not start on religion on this festive season alright?Well,though I'm anti-religion,I still wanna wish Everyone A Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year-I really wouldn't wanna dampen anyone's moods-Whenever it comes to festive seasons,other than Chinese New Year,it's not that euphoric for me.I just don't feel that happy.I guess it's the loneliness perhaps?
Well it doesn't matter to anyone else,and I'm not making my problem a problem for the Others.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
6:55 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Gosh I got inspired by Dope Stars Inc.'s Fast and the Beautiful,the theme and their genre really rocks;being labelled as Cyberpunk or Neo-Gothic.Part of it was inspired by the upcomin Christmas and New Year season and I love the lights at Orchard(but it doesn't compare to those at Hong Kong).I've always loved the City lights.
Hope You guys love this new blogskin of mine,and I'd always be improving myself and comments on my tag are gladly welcomed.I know there's still room for improvement,but I can't possibly see all my flaws eh?So your comments do matter.
Let's Enjoy the Music and come Countdown to the Future with me-
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
2:05 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Captions:Joker at Stanley HK.It was a total candid shot.
My heart's not here with me man,it's still in HK.I miss that place more and more now.I really really do.
Currently browsing through all the pictures I took there,found some really very nice ones which are of the beautiful scenery and I think some of them are suitable as blogskins.Well,I'd take my time to make a nice one.The pictures are just too many,I don't know what to choose.I hope the dimensions are correct.
I miss eating Dim Sum and porridge for breakfast.I miss the busy streets.I miss the Yoshinoya and Ajisen there.By the way,it's getting much more colder there now,oh hell,we went at the wrong time.Over here the heat's really killing me.It's fucking burning.
I've been constantly shopping these few days,cause they had the midnight sale and I've been spending money.Lots of money.Now the only thing that I want that money could buy me is a headphone.I really need one to indulge in music and just let go of everything.
Last Saturday,one more Jack Daniels went down.Gosh it was getting harder but I got through.Lucid yet Rough like the Sand.
All of a sudden right now here while I'm typing my blog,I have a very strong urge to shout 'I love You' to someone now.I really need to shout it to some gal.Some gal who is willing to listen and accept it.Where's She?When's She coming to save me?
Would Someone just steal my heart?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:11 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Captions:Hong Kong Peak tower: I just love the metropolis city.This really overwhelms me.
Ah shit,I'm back here in Singapore.Arrived at midnight last nite,it was a freaking long flight.Gosh I'm gonna miss Hong Kong man,the city that practically never sleeps.I don't even wanna come back here,and I don't miss this place at all,I tell you.
I've been there for just a week only,and it seems that I've been there for so long.I shop from dusk till dawn practically.But the hotel rooms over there are kinda small,I prefer my own bed though.The weather there is so nice,very cooling,but not cold enough.As you know,I am only afraid of the heat.Gosh,this reminds me that I haven't sweated in a whole week.No exercise at all.Over there in HK there're so many obstacles totally suitable for parkour,over here,hahaz,no shit man.
The gals over there are so much more prettier than the gals here.They style up so well,be it gothic of lolita or even normal dressing,Singaporeans gals really can't hold a candle to them.The streets are practically swarming with pretty gals of all ages man.I love that place.By the way,the things they wear,hahaz,they don't ever repeat.The most important thing,they all speak cantonese!All their voices sound so sweet and adorable,which could really melt my heart.I mean I could really be a Hong Konger like my Uncle.Now he doesn't even wanna come back to Singapore,hahaz,and I really wanna be like him.He's not a Singaporean anymore,and I'm proud of that really.He's kinda like my idol.He told me to master Chinese,those mainlands would one day rise to the throne and be cream of the crop one day.I think I'd be taking his advice,and not let anyone affect me,even when people look down on me.I'd never stop learning and when there's no one to teach me stuff,I'm gonna learn it myself.I'm gonna do it alone.Anyway,I don't hate chinese cause I am one.
Know your roots people.There was this one night when I walked along the busy streets of HK alone,admired the festive lights and the shops,selling all kinds of stuff,there's just too much to see,too little time to enjoy.Damn.But I nearly got lost when I wondered too far.I think I'm the only one in the streets in a t-shirt,while everyone else is dressed up in winter clothing,I don't feel cold at all.It just felt cooling..I guess there's still a flame burning inside of somewhere.Hatred?Sorrow?Passion?Only time knows.
The people there do things so fast.I love it.They are really very fast.Even those cleaners at those small little teahouses who clean your table when the previous person leaves is fast.Hahaz,those bus drivers over there?You wouldn't believe how fast they drive,like the fast and the furious literally.It's bus dammit and they drive faster than my father here.The streets there are so much more crowded yet they can drive so fast.This really shows how fast they are.Gosh I really love it there.I love a fast life.It's a bustling metropolis over there man,and I'm waiting to call it my Home.
There are lots of nice scenery there,mountains etc.The cable car views at Ngong Ping were overwhelming and very very romantic...needless to say,the Peak was even better;I saw lots of couples hugging so tightly in the cold yet warming darkness of the night.So romantic.How I wished I had a galfriend which I could go with and hug our hearts out. There's just too much to say it in words,too many things to see,too little time to enjoy.You really have to be there to see it for yourself.My hands are aching typing on the computer now,haven't been doing much but shoppin for a whole entire week.
By the way I got posted to SRJC.Arts stream.Well,I'm not ashamed to say that I'm only applicable to only this course,but what I can do is make the best out of it.I will try to keep myself happy yet improve myself constantly.Live it.Love it.Hong Kong!
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
9:05 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Sunday, December 03, 2006
I'm going to Hong Kong for a week on Wednesday.No one will be able to contact me.Am I happy?
No,not really.I don't have money and I'd be going with my grandparents.Old people.Hope they'd be fast.
Somethings in life are left unknown.There are lots of skeletons in the closet.These dirty secrets are encrypted deep inside of Your heart,nobody knows.Well,people may judge you by the way you treat them,they may even judge you by your looks and mannerisms.
Now I just hope all your damn skeletons get dugged out from your heart by a much Loved one,and believe me,all the views of the people You once love,will change their views bout You.
It's Your own bloody plight.You created it,You end it.Don't You dare fucking drag the others down.By the way,all these aren't prejudiced against anyone.It actually applies to several people who had actually been in my life,but well they're gone now.They got fucked.Sorry,I can't name them,we should all stay faraway from them.It's just like in a prison,you don't call the prisoners by names do you?If You feel hurt while reading all these,hahaz,congratulations:You are one that really got such a bad,bad past.Poor Pussy.I wonder who's getting fucked more,You or your Momma?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
6:53 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
It feels like a jail when you stay at home everyday facing your gaming console and computer.So much like a jail.There's a certain time to eat,certain time to sleep,certain time to exercise,certain time to just stop everything completely and idle away.
I feel so inferior again;knowing the people out there are either spendin quality times with their family,or with their friends,they would also probably be working and making new friends,and of course,spending their time together with a lover.Yeah,with a Lover.
While I see the people out there having so much fun,I'm already in a state of melancholy.My mind is frying with those sadistic and melancholy thoughts.Well,I only speak about my true feelings on my blog,cause there ain't anyone out there that cares.
Now I just wish and hope that I do not break down.I must stand strong and live strong.Never be on my knees;never bow to anyone.I still believe in myself.I still do...love myself very much,though no one else would care,but we all came to this world with nothing,and we should also leave with nothing.I would really carry on with my life,while constantly trying to improve myself in every aspect,like the social and physical aspects.I'll try to workout my body or practise some martial arts or something.Try to treat people better.
Or maybe I'd try painting also...it's known to express my moods.I want to try to paint one day;perhaps a simple object,or a romantic scenery,or even people.Don't demand anything from me,I really do not have anything to give to you.So I'd just shy away back into my shell.I reckon I work better alone,or at least the those people out there would be better without me.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
5:21 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, December 01, 2006
Captions:This is a photo I took with my lousy phone long time ago while standing on a road close to a fast passing car at night.My thoughts are racing so fast nowadays again.But physically I'm getting slower.I kinda lost my stamina during the exams.Oh no,but not my drive,certainly not.
I really need my speed and stamina back,in all aspects of my personal well-being.I love being fast.So fast that no one can ever catch up with me.I can't even run well while playing soccer.
I hope someone really books a big soccer field and hold some soccer matches where I could really run.I need to burn people man.
I feel the whole world around me going so slow,everyone is practically walking so slow...minding their own fucking business so slowly,like nobody's business...even the people workin at the cashiers at shops are collecting money so slowly.Oh for Fuck's sake,work faster.No wonder our economy is so slow.
And last but not least,those old people.Old people.Slow.Smelly.Dirty.Yuck.I saw this old american couple last night eatin at a restaurant.They looked so fucking slow!They ate so slowly.I really can't stand them at all.And come to think of it,all my friends walk so slowly also.They really walk so slow.Sometimes I just can't stand them.So sorry to have mentioned that but yeah.
My O level's result will only come out next year.That's so bloody slow.I'm losing all my patience.How slow is this world?I really need to know so fast people.Who do almost everything quickly.
If you think you're up to it,then contact me ok?Anyone out there.I would really like to meet you personally.
Let's have a Race.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:00 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Captions:Joker at Stanley HK.It was a total candid shot.
Captions:Hong Kong Peak tower: I just love the metropolis city.This really overwhelms me.
Captions:This is a photo I took with my lousy phone long time ago while standing on a road close to a fast passing car at night.
