I strive to Burn and the Flame returns-

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Chinese New Year 2009.

Don't have much new apparels, nor much mood.

Received alot of hongbaos, but I didn't even opened a single one. Never checked how much I've got, and it doesn't really matter.

I think I've kinda succeeded in combating man's desire for materialism.

What I desire now is time, a stronger mentality and body, and Her.

It's been so so long since I've held her hand.

Her smile. Her smell. Her touch. Her warmth.

So sorry for all the times I wasn't there for you; I realised that absence does make the heart grow fonder.

I'd definitely make it up to You, my dear, so don't you worry :)

The bassist ain't free on Thursday, so it probably means there's no jamming.

I miss those days of the phoenix, where our dreams seemed not far away.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

7:16 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Yes.

We should be jamming some good AFI songs next week such as total immortal, girl's not grey and perhaps miss murder.

Also some gay songs like David Cook's always be my baby and fall for you by Secondhand Serenade, which I will refuse to sing.

What's the point of jamming when you can sing these songs in a toilet?

And some songs that everyone (even LGBT) loves, such Nickelback's S.E.X , some Skillet and Muse.

I have dreams of being a full time rock-singer.

The Cure's boys don't cry is wonderful.

Check it out here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8CDERzun4k

I am gaining back the intrinsic momentum to train. Gotta get the core back.

My baby inspires me to train indirectly; I've gotta work out to remain strong, sturdy and good lookin' for I might lose out to the competition that's surfacing (from facebook and ex-classmates).

Hahaz.

I miss You terribly too.

Reach out and you may take my heart away.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

10:13 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Went back to school to climb yesterday, and realised that I've quite lost all my strength.

I couldn't even last the endurance round of sticking on the wall for 2 minutes.

Damn.

My abs have degraded to a pile of dough since I had a proper training 7 months ago, even though I still don't have a tummy.

Pull ups dropped from 21 to maybe a 10. Fingers weaken and give way while I grab unto nice jugs.

I just recieved an old xbox console from my uncle complete with original games. At least now I've something to do while the silly gal is in school.

I'd get my body back, and You, darling, get your body beat.

Let's dance.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

5:31 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm still jobless.

Ok, I might just work as some sales person at a boutique.

She said jokingly that I might have a chance of being the next cute guy that'd have gals blogging bout me, following the footsteps of the original cute guy working at Giordano at Vivo.

Myspace Music has officially blocked me from accessing all their band media players, for all the things I've took from them.

Damn.

I contacted Dieblo for the lyrics to his songs and he said that humans have an insatiable desire through his blog regarding my request.

There was blog post named Desire that spewed out some sarcasm bout how I said his voice was a lil inaudible.

Man, he sure is a funny guy.

Ok, just where is everyone on this blog? My tags haven't been running much lately.

So, bring my blog back alive, advocates!

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

7:27 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I'm missing Her so much.

I'm starting to train up again, and realised that I've lost almost half my strength. It's been 7-8 months without any form of training.

Gotta get my body back.

Wonder how's She doing in school; I know it's alot of stress, but you've just gotta learn to live with it.

Yeah, You should be there to Fight.

Now, my parkour spirit's quite kicking in again, and I'm free enough to practise and do some new moves; to avoid being a useless, jobless couch potato.

By the way, my new jukebox' up... and I know the size of the player's a lil too big for my blogskin, but nevertheless it's pretty nice as there is the much desired...volume control.

Will be updating more songs as time to come, so Enjoy.

Stay Strong,
JoKer.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

2:08 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Monday, January 12, 2009

Finally.

I managed to get Combichrist's whole new EP: Today We're All Demons, while the album on cd isn't even out on sale yet till 20th January.

Just like old times; when I had their WTFIWWY album when it hasn't even been released yet in the beginning of 2007.

Yeah, call me the Music Junkie.

Just seemed to remind me of the good'old fun times, when I had with my first 3 months OG, all the people there; it was exactly 2 years ago.

I suddenly remember celebrating my 17th birthday with my OG in Pizza Hut; the rebellious, gutsy, the anti-hero, aggressive and adrenaline junkie me.

Wonder how much I've changed unwittingly.

Hahaz, I think my adrenaline level has long been untapped. Same goes for my rage level. I can feel both these attributes of Joker diminish.

Guess it's the power of love; mentioned it before that all these can go away with sufficient care, concern and love.

Love and Hate are the exact opposites (although I think I can manipulate my hate into rage better than using love as my inner-strength) , and I'm not accustomed to flare up for nothing.

How do I feel towards you? Just observe my reactions for I am a mirror of your actions.

We all have the right and liberty to choose what we wanna be.

So,...two years later; I'm stuck at home, having fun and looking for a job, but still as happy.

This time Combichrist's album is a little much heavier, along with more aggressively offensive lyrics and bass.

Damn, do I love good'old Combichrist.

Let's Kickstart the Party!

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

8:50 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Another wonderful day with my baby; went with Her to Golden Landmark to get a leotard, but too bad they don't have that tall silly gal's size, and in the end she felt so depressed leaving empty handed.

Did my best to cheer her up and we roamed Haji Lane again, but no more shisha smokers nor opened shops.

Went to the Golden Mile hawker centre and had a good bowl of prawn noodles. Gosh, I got partially deaf after tasting some red chilli. First time in my life. Must've been Her who passed me the overheating disease.

Hahahaz.

Brought the Silly gal to the nearest bus stop to take the bus to Queensway. Man, as usual, we walked the long way.

Went to crowded Queensway to help her select a nice pair of running shoes. I saw this really nice and sexy pair of Nike Zoom sneakers, which was initially $190 but now selling for $114.

Too bad they don't have Her size again, and we chose the second best; well it's still pretty nice.

Told Her to run out the shop to test the shoes and there was this bunch of guys staring at Her with in a horrible manner.

Hate it when guys ogle at my gal.

School starts for Her tomorrow, while I'd be stuck at home looking for jobs. I kinda miss school.

No worries, hun, I'm still here and still your boy. So there is no need to worry, really :)

Go to school, work hard and play hard.
There is a time to play and a time to work, so I hope you'd prioritise your time well.

Focus, and most importantly, choose your friends wisely.

I tell you, there are many people out there who act as if they're your friends, but are out to harm you, cloud your mind and affect your judgement. You know what I'm talking bout. Fall into their trap and you lose.

These are exactly the friends, you'd be much better off without.

Trust me, I know best. Been in this kinda shit before, and I don't want this to ever happen to you.

So, just do the right things, stay strong and I assure you there is no such thing as regret.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

5:28 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Friday, January 09, 2009

Ok, I've just turned 19 today.

Presents from the Silly Gal: an extremely sweet handmade card and a very nice brown leather bag; and even though it's a lil big, but I guess it's worth it.

Not too gay and not too cheap. I like it.

Dinner at Ajisen Ramen was her treat (I love Ramen), and dessert was Jim Beam Cola, surprisingly.

Itchy fingers acted up once again since such a long long time.

Well, since I still have the speed and skill, no harm trying to put em' to good use.

Hahahaz.

Thanks for everything, baby. I had a wonderful day, and most importantly a wonderful birthday.

I think Davey Havok of AFI is pretty cool. I like how he could pull off an androgynous and a punk style perfectly.

She said suspenders might look good on me and I thought of Davey. He wears em' on his tours.

Maybe I'd try em one day, and hopefully I can pull it off wearing it nicely.

On my current playlist: AFI's prelude 12/21, total immortal and bleed black.

On Her current playlist: Fall Out Boy's Folie A Deux and Nickelback's S.E.X.

This is what I thought, I thought you'd need me.
This is what I thought, so think me naive
I'd promised you a heart, you'd promise to keep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Love me long and I'd let you recieve.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

9:58 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Thursday, January 08, 2009

I'd be spending my birthday with Her tomorrow.

I worry when she's got things on her mind; feel bad that I can't do a thing to help, as a boyfriend.

I love to see her dance.

If anyone's truly fast and beautiful, it'd have to be Her.

Simply a look, can break your heart.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

12:10 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Life's all fun and woes.

Cycled to Bishan yesterday to meet up with the silly gal to accompany her study. Sat there using her laptop and playin arcade games on it. Read some marvel comics and man, I love Wolverine.

I had the idea of cycling her home with my bike with her standing on my mini bike peds. It looks dangerous at first, but I'm confident to say that I've got my fair share of bike skills.

In the end, she still enjoyed herself and even wanted to go a few more rounds.

Today: Xiongwei organised a cycling trip at Pulau Ubin and only 5 of us turned up. It was my first time to Ubin and I didn't imagine the bike trails...to be that insane.

The seaview and the breeze there is just good. Kinda romantic too.

Wish You were there.

Climb down to the mangrove swamp to catch crabs. Mini crabs that lives in mini holes. There were hundereds, but when I went to catch them, they all went back into the holes.

All of em.

I've never see anything like that in my life, and when I saw some naughty crabs peeping at me from their homes, I took a branch and dug the hell outta those holes.

Till I got the lil crabbies. I managed to kill one, catch one and sever the big pincer of another.

Put em into my water bottle and watched em crawl silly.

Went up to the bird watching tower and man, that was the kinda view everyone should see.

Came to the quarry which was out of bounds and it sure looked mystical, as there was no other single soul in sight.

We then continued cycling until we reached specific difficulty routes. Blue spots, black diamond and double black diamond (from easiest to hardest).

Damn, we choosed double black diamond and ended up cycling on steep slopes full of rocks and stones, trees, bushes and no one else in sight.

Man, we nearly had accidents.

We then lost our way deep in the forest trail. Imagine our relief when we saw another group of youngsters lost!

We were almost in the middle of nowhere and we were all tired from the pushing of bikes up the steep slopes. Damn, those slopes were steep like stairs, except a hell lot muddier and rough.

We came back to the main road after 2 hours.

Then they suggested completing the rest of the trail.

I was reluctant even as I liked cycling, but after doing the trails, it was way way outta my league and way to dangerous.

For goodness's sake, we didn't even have helmets or proper shoes!

But nevertheless, we still fought on.

Uphill, downhill and I nearly banged in trees and untrimmed bushes.

I did fall down a couple of times, but landed safely into the bushes.

Had a few dead ends and we ended up wasting energy cycling through the rocky roads.

After 4 long hours of continuous cycling out of the forest, I was dead beat. My ass hurts as the trails were bloody bumpy.

But we managed to cycle around the whole isle of Ubin, with no casualties. We'd completed all the trails as a team. Although I might be kinda anti-hero myself, but this time it's all bout the teamwork.

Came home, fell asleep and my parents went out to town. I cycled to get dinner. Cycled back and here I am bloggin.

More cycling to come tomorrow with the silly gal.

What a great way to exercise.

As everyone has their fair share of fun and woes, I also have mine. I'm worried bout the relief teacher job as the waiting list is long.

There's another job opportunity being a salesman selling tv. This time there's no contract.

Today's 3rd January, and even though it's still the beginning of the new year, I'm worried bout my relief teaching job as it's bringing alot of false hope.

This New Year's Resolution:
1. Stop sucking my parents money, I'm old and free enough to start work.

2. Love Her even more. (She deserves it :)

3. Stay postive, happy and strong.

4. Repeat whatever good I've done and make all the mistakes I've done in the past year obsolete.

My Birthday's a week away, and it seems like another excuse for me not to seek for a job.

So, Joker, do your thing and come rescue me.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

5:20 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Spent the New Year with Yijun baby, and we still managed to catch the beautiful fireworks eventually, even though her dad was pretty reluctant on her going for it the day before.

Simply Wonderful.

This is my first time spending a new year with a beloved one while watching fireworks live.

I suddenly remember the past new year's eve I'd spent, mostly the lonely ones.

But this year's the best there is, and plus there's no more school.

Well, that's not exactly good news; kinda miss school, training and paying student concession fares.

Hope I can go to work soon, and I hate sucking off my parents like some spoilt kid.

So, just embrace the New Year 2009, be it good or bad.

We'd still have to live, so why not make it heaven?

Let's just hope she understands.

He builds his personality like how They build bombs-

7:03 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-