Just as I thought after the holidays that I'm gonna love school, shit happened.
My results. The Worst in all these years.
So bad that I'm actually embarrassed to say it out.
I'm pretty upset and demoralised. But, I'm still standing.
Just as I thought when things'll be fine, I got labelled by Her again.
That I'm selfish.
That I'm a dumb ass.
That I'm a mood-spoiler.
That I'm full of mere complaints.
That I'm full of excuses.
That I'm full of shit and crap.
Well I summarise all these for you: That I'm a total loser.
The best thing is that I didn't even mean what I've done in a bad way. I never ever did mean them in a bad way. I've always tried to explain myself, but everytime she'd just pass them off as excuses.
I rarely get to be acknowledged as a good person...well maybe that's because I was never good in anything in the first place.
But is that all I'm worth in her eyes? Just over the span of a few days?Things aren't exactly going on well at home too. Parents are always making a fuss outta every small thing. My injuries are still not recovering the way I want them to.
I put all my result slips on my messy desk. I feel the full weight of all my failures pressing on me.
I have tons of work to complete. I have so much apologies to make.
I have to carry on. I have gotta pick myself up again without any help.
I mustn't get demoralised nor discouraged.
Failure isn't about falling down- it's about staying down.I believe I have stayed down for a pretty long time now, so it's time for me to gear up.
Welcome back to the Battlefield.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
2:31 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
I just watched
the Bucket List.A very good and touching show. At first, I thought it was just some mediocre drama type of show but it proved me otherwise.
Well, this movie set me pondering about something: How much my life is worth.
I've always wanted to know how much my life is worth in this lifetime.
How do we measure it then?
Do we measure it by the amount of fun we've had in life? Or do we simply measure it by the people who measured theirs by us?
In my perspective, there're just a few things in life that we really need.
Warmth. Kindness. Compassion. Love.Maybe that's how religions work. I can't deny that faith does in fact make us feel all these someway or another.
There're also other things in life that can make you feel happy. But I can't ensure that they'd stay deeply etched in your heart like how warmth, kindness, compassion and love do.
Ever come across a time that when no matter how successful or smart you might be, you just feel that there's just something not right; like you're devoid of something deep down?
Well...sure we can have all the fun in the world, but that is only provided that you have satisified the core attributes that really make us human.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
12:33 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Had our belated one year anniversary with Gwen yesterday.
Well, I can say it's perfect, complete with a good movie, good food and good dessert....and a good old' long bus ride.
Really glad that she enjoyed herself so much.
Anyway, my thai friend just came back from the US a few days back, and they had a small gathering yesterday. I couldn't go cause I already had one important date.
Oh well.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
8:40 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
I've been injury prone for the past few weeks, and it has intensified over the past few days.
Firstly, I got kicked by my brother on my right pinky finger a few weeks ago. Hasn't healed completely even up till now.
Secondly, my brother stepped on my fourth right finger a few weeks ago too. Hasn't healed comepletely also.
Thirdly, my left knee hasn't exactly been acting well the past week, due to some old injury.
Then, I went to
Climb Asia yesterday, after so many weeks of ceased climbing, I went on the wall again, ended up wit a blotch on my knee and two skin peels off my left fingers. Raw skin peeled when I jumped for a tile.
Finally, I just came back from a soccer game just now. I had a busted lip and a deep scratch near my eye. All from a ball-ram.
How lucky can I get?
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
5:53 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
