Wednesday, February 27, 2008
As all you people know, I've been very very busy lately. So I haven't got the time to update...so sorry for making you devotees wait.
Common test is next week. This is very very fast.
Haven't been doing well lately. I'm such a slacker nowadays.
I realised that I learn better when I get taught fast. It gives me the drive to be faster...well as you know, I am an adrenaline and speed junkie.
I like seeing fast stuff. Well, I do get impatient sometimes.
I need a huge boost in confidence and an even bigger boost in my adrenaline glands.
I hate the feeling of being tired.
I've just gotta push this through.
This is very cliche and a very fundamental saying:
No pain, no gain.But I've gotta tell you this: It's the truth.
One last thing; please be professional while doing this, cause the chances are, others will stumble with their amateur ways of achieving success...which would very well result in...failure.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
5:09 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Celebrated Her birthday at Fish & Co. yesterday.
Awesome night along with pool at monstercue.
Just quite disappointed that we didn't have enough time and there wasn't enough variety of rings for us to choose.
Well, it'd just be a matter of time before we get it.I've got to set my mind on my work now. My schedule will be hectic when those long CIP hours start clocking in.
I've got to start working again.
I've got to much better. Much faster. Much Stronger.
I need new music to keep the engine going.
Once I get on track, try stopping me if you dare.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:26 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Hell lots happened since the last week.
I didn't welcome the Lunar New Year warmly.
So, let me take this opportunity to wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year.Ok, now let me get back to my story:
Something that shouldn't happen happened last week.No names.No details.
I lost control. In a fit of rage.
Even I was afraid.I seemed to have lost everything overnight.
Just like
Tony Montana from my favourite movie,
Scarface.But apparently, things turned out fine. With loads of encouragement from friends and much loved ones, I survived.
Here I am; facing the consequences like a man. We all need lessons to serve as a turning point in life, to change from a boy to a man.
This was mine.After all that I'd been through, I've finally begun to realize that no obstacle is really impossible to cross when you have people by your side; these are the very people that You are living your life for.
There's definitely a way when you have the will.
This is my lunar new year resolution: Stay strong, focused, optimistic and not let the opinions of others affect my mentality.
There is a fine line between opinion and advice. Opinion sways you from your stand, while advice helps you to carry on standing.
I'm prepared to face all the consequences like a man; the 'poor' conduct grade, the counselling sessions and the long CIP hours.
I've got all my confidence back now...and it completes the man. Mind you, confidence does not equate to a big ego. No one knows this better than I do.
Ultimately, nothing is gonna stop me now from training hard, working hard nor loving hard cause I've just got nothing more to fear.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
2:51 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Friday, February 01, 2008
I want everyone to know that the previous posts aren't aimed particularly at anyone, even though it could sound insulting...but it really isn't.
Those are the things that I've repressed for a quite a little while.
I made a deal with my friend to respect my previous relationship. Yes, I should.
Although I may appear visibly normal on the outside, the fact is that my heart did break. It ended all so abruptly. It was totally uncalled for.
I didn't even expect it?
If I didn't care, I wouldn't have taken the time to blog about it.
Some people call me heartless, that I've been cold to her. At least I wasn't angry. But what happened happened and couldn't possibly happen in any other way.
Love has made us into symbiotes. It makes both the lovers dependent on each other. This is something beautiful and ugly.
Beautiful when love is still flowing; ugly when it's not.
Most of the time, we just want our ex-girlfriends or boyfriends to come back. We miss them, as absence makes our hearts grow fonder. This is shown by the the lack of concentration, drive and lethargy. We think of them almost 24/7.
This is only normal. Even I get it too.
But what has Love taught me? It has taught me how to control.
To control my emotions, to control my actions, to control my heart.We must all understand that it's hard for anyone to take it that the person whom they stood by and loved all this while is unresponsive and cold. But it is only under certain circumstances that the latter feels obliged to do so.
Insensitivity is due to repetitive heartaches.
At this very stage, it isn't bout the blame game anymore. It's all bout the emotions and regrets.
Welcome to Reality. Deranged Reality.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
7:45 PMThe Best way out,is always Through-
Woo hoo!
My tagboard has just been transformed into a public rumble ranting ground. I love this. Nothing ever happens on that silly tag of mine until I struck some fire into some readers' hearts, making them feel so obliged to tag.
It's small and hard too read though. Oh well.
School's been going well, I rarely feel tired anymore. In fact, whenever a teacher( eg. my econs tutor) gets mad, I get so happy...and hyperactive.
Just like the old times.Too bad I have to control myself in order to get the lesson going.
Valentine's Day is approaching. Looks like I won't have a date. Sad.
Sniff.Well, I won't give up on love, let alone hope...as I've realised that all my girlfriends get better as they add up, and I always learn something in the end. Something good.
Getting the girl isn't really much of the problem, maintaining the relationship is.Here's something funny:
I mean we should always try our best to understand people, but ultimately, they have gotta earn it.
He builds his personality like how They build bombs-
5:23 AMThe Best way out,is always Through-
